Rose Ellen Dix, one half of YouTube couple Rose & Rosie, is getting more personal than ever in RoseCD, a new podcast exploring her lifelong experience of living with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).
Diagnosed with OCD at 17, Rose has lived with the condition throughout her life. Now, in her first podcast dedicated entirely to her own experience, she is talking openly about the parts of OCD that are often misunderstood or left unsaid — from intrusive thoughts and compulsions to health anxiety, shame, perfectionism, panic spirals and the impact it can have on relationships.
And, as you’d expect from Rose, she’s doing it with honesty, warmth and plenty of humour.
RoseCD isn’t a clinical guide to OCD. This is Rose’s story.
“I live with OCD. Not as an expert and not as a clinician. As someone who’s spent almost twenty years trying to understand their own brain. RoseCD isn’t about teaching people what OCD is. It’s about showing them what it feels like.”
The podcast doesn’t shy away from the difficult parts. In episode one, Rose talks about experiencing suicidal thoughts as a teenager, before her diagnosis, and how she has learned to understand and manage her OCD over the years.
But there are lighter moments too — including Rose revealing the elaborate mental gymnastics she went through trying to convince herself she had a crush on Ewan McGregor, when she was actually crushing on Nicole Kidman.
Across a ten-episode first season, Rose is unpacking a different aspect of her experience in each episode, exploring the reality behind the stereotypes of OCD as simply being about cleanliness, tidiness or organisation.
The podcast is entirely self-produced, with Rose speaking in her own words and from her own lived experience.
“I wanted to make something that I would have wanted when I was younger — something that made me feel less weird, less ashamed and less alone,” says Rose. “OCD can make you think you’re the only person in the world having a particular thought. Sometimes just hearing someone else say, ‘I’ve thought that too,’ can make a huge difference.”
Rose says the aim is simple: to talk honestly about what OCD actually feels like from the inside, share what she has learned about living with it, and create a space where people can recognise thoughts they may have been too frightened, embarrassed or ashamed to say out loud.
The result is serious when it needs to be, but unmistakably Rose — warm, self-deprecating, a little chaotic and very funny in places.
Rose and Rosie have been together for more than 15 years and married for 11 years, with two young sons of their own — Ziggy, born to Rosie in 2021, and Rocky, born to Rose in 2024. Alongside raising their family, they’ve built one of the UK’s best-known LGBTQ+ YouTube channels, with over 3 million followers across their platforms and hundreds of millions of views.
They have also co-authored the book Overshare, starred in the documentary of the same name and taken their story on the road with their sold-out Exposed tour.
With RoseCD, Rose is turning the camera — and the microphone — towards something much more personal.